I am at odds with myself. Sometimes I struggle with the person I was in high school and the person I am today and the person I want to be. That’s a lot of people to be struggling with, and as far as I’m concerned I can still hold on to parts of who I was as I grow into the person I want to be. I think there are two parts of my life that are totally at odds with each other in this way. The first is my sense of fashion. When I was in high school I hung out with the goth/punk kids and even rocked some pretty impressive blue hair, if I do say so myself. I didn’t own a single pair of jeans for my entire high school career. I thought they were too “normal.” But now I find myself wanting to wear flowing dresses and “hippie” clothes. But I also still like to give into to the rocker in me. Then there is the other part of me that likes things like, oh say, this:
That is a screen shot from Target’s Style Maker thingy (a technical term I assure you). You can “Like” Target on Facebook then click the “Merona” tab on their main page and it takes you to the style maker where you can mix and match and save outfits you really like. I have found myself obsessed with it lately and I am planning on printing out my screen shot and taking it with me to thrift stores in the hopes that I can score some sweet deals. 🙂 But that’s the thing, these looks are all “preppy.”
The other area of conflict I have is in interior design. I love the look of homes filled with bright paintings and overstuffed furniture and piles of books everywhere, but I am also a huge fan of clean modern lines. I found a website for a company that makes tree houses for adults and found myself swooning over the interior shots of homes with skyline views and Earthy furniture everywhere. Could I be the kind of person that lives in a tree house? What about a ranch house? The possibilities seem endless…
So what does that make me? I choose to believe the best answer is that I am eclectic. And there is nothing wrong with wanting to change things up a little bit, is there?